Thursday, April 29, 2010

A Little of This and That

It's really great to read how everyone is getting back into the swing of things. Me, well I do not know why I can not. Or just don't want to. Trying to figure it out.

I found a triathlon training group in Miami. For beginners they start on May 8.{my sons 18th} I can afford it and it is 2 days a week. Plus help with diet and everything. Other than that every other day I have been doing a circuit training video with my daughter and interval running. She is faster then me. I haven't been on the bike or anything. I am in a runt and I can't get out.

I know in the back of my head I have to train and get back up to the longer miles. Training for the Goofy here. Yes I am going to try it. And I want to run the entire half in October. But sitting around isn't cutting it. The weather here has been awesome.

E finally went to the doctor about his foot. She has him doing stretches 3 times a day for 3 weeks. And if that doesn't help then send him to a specialist. Oh great. E is wanting to get out the door and stuff, me ehh ok.

And the vo2 max is in. As soon as the staff is finished with training she wants me in there. That's what she told E. And I am due for my 3 month lab redraw.

My car is coming along, E said we can pull it out, and finish taking it apart to see if there is any damage to the head . I will post pics. The fan saved my radiator from getting stuff stuck in to it. Thank goodness. The fan works great still. The only thing that wasn't mentioned on the build sheet for my car was the cam. I can't wait to see what kind it is, and maybe get a different one. :)

Other than that, things have been rolling along smooth, no drama.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

My Poor Mustang...

Those who all know me,know I love my car.

Well last Friday, my 5.0 fox decided it was going to throw a money wrench into the mix.
Man did it ever.

How about a big hole in the front of my motor!? And on I95.

Yep. my beautiful 5.0 motor is now resting in peace. See that hole???

We believe the crank broke when I was going to pass on the interstate and 65 in third gear, and BAM!!!!! And oil went blowing out the back of the car. E has a Mustang convertible of the same style of mine, but it is acting up and so we now have no transportation.
This motor is already to come out and we are going to replace the bottom end as long as there is no damage to the top. The bottom is still all stock.

So we went to rent a car for 2 weeks. And we thought we were going to end up with a little foreign tin can. Saturday it was like I had lost my dog. I felt aweful. Anyway... Our favorite place we rent from and not naming any names, offers this for the 2 weeks.....

HOLY CATS!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!! The new 2010 with only 4800 miles on it, mustang convertible!!! It's the 6 not the 8 cylinder. I started to cry.
Is all I can say. What a sweet ride it has been. Grabber Blue. I call it my kool aide machine. :) I fell in love with this mustang. Do not get me wrong I love my fox body mustang as seen in white above,but this one is just WOW!!!!

So now I have to save some money and later go see if I can get me one of these.

See doesn't it look like it belongs in my driveway? {big grin}

So as we take the motor out I will post pictures of what it looks like. I think it's coming out today. :) Not sure yet.

As for the duathlon this weekend, I am not doing it. I am going to sit this one out, but the kids are still going to volunteer.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


Another week.
My legs are sore as you know what. My upper body is getting use to the 30 minute workout. Time to move up to the next level.

I was looking at the registration for the dualthlon. Well there is no sprint distance. Only Olympic. Great. So that means I got to get my butt in the saddle and get down there and ride the causeway. So later today, I am going to run a 6 miler and maybe work in some time to go ride.

I want to tell Richard good luck this weekend. He is going to be doing the Long Horn 70.3. I will be watching, via internet.

Have a great week!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Slowing Down

Today I am at work. Doing one on one. I am not doing desk work. I am wondering if I have been put back on the floor and removed from the desk.

Fj is home. He is doing much better than before. Still has to work on things, but better. Tomorrow he goes back to school. We will see how it goes.

I did 2.0 mile intervals yesterday morning. Faster than my normal and my lungs didn't like it. I have been pushing to get faster. So I did it in 28:41. The night before I did it in 29:44.i also did the 30 day shred, and walk a mile, and walk 2 miles. I made my calorie burn and my steps!
Now I have decided to go back to the duathlons. I was going to do the Olympic distance coming up in May but I think I should just do the sprint distance. I do not believe I could clear the rickenbacker 4 times. I haven't been doing any hills lately. And I haven't been working out like I was last year. I got a new mask for swimming and I plan on being back in the pool on Monday. Full face mask are legal.

In the middle of all the mess last week, my gyn calls me and told me I need to come by the office and pick up script to control my cycle better. Plus with my labs off if I didn't want to do that she was going to put me in the hospital til my labs were normal. So i agreed to the hormone therapy.
Holy Cats!
The last two days I have felt pretty good. I do get a sour stomach alot, it is suppose to pass after about a week. We will see. :)

I thank everyone for the support, it means alot to me. Have a great Sunday!!

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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Up date to It Isn't Pretty

Well found today that most of the residential help centers are full and have waiting list. So with that FJ will most likely be coming home tomorrow. Really? Or is it the fact he is nearly 18 and they don't want to start him on a program and then stop cause of his birthday coming up? I feel he is getting the but end here and I do not know what to do other than take it one day at a time.

I feel we will be back in the hospital before the end of next week. Really. And the Doctor hasn't called me back. That is not settling with me either.

It Isn't Pretty

As of lately FJ{my son} has been having alot of really hard times. It really started in Jan. this year when he finally got to meet up with his Biological father who the kids have not seen in 10 years. While we were up for Marathon weekend we all were preoccupied with this going on. And this was part of the reason why we missed the meets and gatherings.

And the girlfriend was giving FJ a hard time, after her coming back from her vacation. So this caused alot of drama. Specially when FJ does not comprehend things as you or I do. Fj looks totally fine, but he is not on the inside. Mental illness. And comprehension level of 10-12 years old. Adhd, manic depressive with psychosis. {yes I have my hands full with him}{I am being butt ugly truthful here}

Nov.08 FJ was in an altercation. I am at a lost what to do, I thought he needed to learn a life lesson that you can not go around treating people the way he does, and violence isn't the answer. So I had him charged. Dec.08 the court house closed down for a water main broke and flooded records and stuff, so this was dragged out. Then he was tested to see if he was competent to understand what was going on. And three different times he was found not to be. So finally this year, one of the doctors found him to be. I was surprised to hear him answer all the questions the way he did as well. So here we are,community service hours almost done, anger management almost done.Spring break is coming up and FJ is getting excited cause he's going to spend a week with his Bio. father. 3 days before spring break he is sitting on the couch complaining her can't go cause of the adult issues going on with bio. father and his girlfriends family. And they didn't want FJ coming and the drama they were dealing with they didn't want him to deal with. BUT FJ does not see it this way. FJ sees it as he is being rejected and ignored and now he is going into a manic low.Let me tell you that is no fun. So his sister calls the Bio father and she is raising hell, and this causes alot of drama but it all was the truth except for them putting the bio. father girlfriend in the middle. Again this is how they see it.

And the now FJ's ex girlfriend is and has been pushing his buttons. Fj stopped taking his meds, walking around with a huge chip on his shoulder.
All the long nights of him not understanding what she was and is doing and FJ taking it out on us.

Last Friday, I am off of work. I get a phone call. I could not get to the phone fast enough. I didn't think nothing of it right away. I listened to the message. It was FJ's school calling. He got into an altercation with another student who has been a problem for over 2 years now,but the ex girlfriend used this kid to get FJ angry. It worked. They told me they got him to calm down and redirect. Then all the sudden FJ started to pound on his own has, screaming and yelling how he is going to kill himself,when he gets home today.{in great detail} FJ never made it home. He was baker acted. We did not get to see him till 8p that night in the hospital. He look terrible. And he just asked us to keep talking to drown out the voice in his head telling him to kill himself.

Today he is in a hospital. In no shape to come home. I had to take today off to go get his school work, take this form to his Doctor to fill out so I can have days off on days I work so it won't count against me. The Doctor can't fill it out till tomorrow when he is in office and the office staff is telling me it can't be filled out till next week. HOLY CATS!!! I need it now. I have had this job for 6 years. My longest job ever.Yes longest ever when you have a child with special needs there isn't many people to advocate for them and I have been through many jobs cause of that.
So the doctor is talking of a long term facility to get him real stable so he knows what it feel like to be stable. It is in the hands of my insurance company right now. Scary thought. If I remember right they will only cover 28 days for mental illness inpatient. Doctor is talking 90 days! We will see. I guess I will be going into debt to get him the help he needs.

I am stressed out to the max, I have my job to worry about too. So I try to keep running. That's all I can do.

FJ wants to go into the Army I don't think they will take him. And I know he will go into a depression again. Oh yeah we have to deal with the fact he is in violation of probation. He will not survive 21 days in JDC. To me it seems that bio father is not taking me serious about this. Either he has to step and be in his life or step out. The kid can't handle being left out on a balancing act.

It has been so quiet here in our home. There is a calm here. Never felt that in our home.

So right now I am running and riding my bike. Got to get back to work. Maybe I will go to my Doctor and get her to get me some time off. I don't know yet.

So there it is. It isn't pretty.

Just keep running...

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

A Little Of This A Little Of That..

I am off today. I am soooo glad to be off. Why?? They are converting to a new system and that requires down time. Have you ever sat at a desk in a hospital and had to do orders w/o a computer? Holy Cats it is tough.

I got all my test results back. All are normal. YAY!!!!! SO what does this mean? Well in May I go for my 3 month lab draw for a check up to see if I have leveled out my numbers. Find out if the Doctor's office have the VO2 max machine in and get an apt. for that thing. Line up with the nutritionist.

I have been making my calorie burn, steps and activity per my body bugg. I have been tracking my food better. And my scale holds true to 194. And it is a new SCALE!!!! SO I will have to figure out what numbers the Doctors are going to follow.

Sunday my daughter has joined me in running. She wants to run the 5k in October.{really she wants to go to NSSHP}She wants to try to do the half too. She runs faster than I do. So she set the pace and I had to keep up. My lungs were in not happy and it made it real hard. We did just 2.0 miles. She wouldn't go to 3, but she did 2.! And she joined me in my 30 minute workout.

Today I need to get in 6 miles. On the swimming front, well not much. Unforeseen things have been happening here. And when I get the details today on what is going on I will tell all. It's not pretty.

Train hard, Have fun ,Stay injury free. Team Voice !

Friday, April 9, 2010

Feeling Better

Since my last post, I have been doing an upper free weight workout 3 days a week, with core. Started back to running. Last night was only a 2 miler, but it felt great, lungs were a little off but that is due to being sick. I have Uverse and they have been offering on exercise tv free workouts. So twice a week I have started doing that. So this will end week one of all of that.

My rear tire again is loosing air. I am going to put in my last spare tube, re tape the inside of the rim, I am wondering if my rim is bent. I have to take my bike in for a tune up.

We have decided to go up for the Ironman weekend, and get my stuff and maybe volunteer for the race. Friday- Monday. Now I will be able to see the race, know what will be expected of me, and prepare, and be ready for next year. ;) Besides my job has not approved my time off. Which I have made a big issue out of. I do not ask for time off except for certain dates every year, and they are the same time every year. I will not let it go either.

Other than this my world has been crazy busy. Drama,and my youngest past the drivers permit test. And is ready to learn. Oh boy! All we have is manual drive cars!! And next month FJ will be 18!! WOW!!!

What ever you do this weekend enjoy it. Keep moving forward!

Have a great weekend!

Team Voice Many Goals, One Voice

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter Sunday

Happy Easter. I hope you had a nice one. We did, grilled and just the 5 of us.

Today I worked on my upper body.
Wood chop 50 per side
bent over row 3 sets of 25
bicep curl 3 sets 25
three others I do not know the names for. Then 100 ball crunches
chest ext. resistance 50

I feel like I am trying to catch a cold. I have had this stuff for nearly 10 days now. At least I sound better.I still can't smell.

I go this week for another test. May I go for a redraw of all my blood levels. I am slowly feeling better. :)

Going to hit the pool this week. Start working on my 1 mile sprint. May 2 race got the ole causeway to tackle. Going to have to make time and go down there and ride my bike, and walk it.
Do hills on the bike in the gym. My rear tire is having issues with keeping air in it. This is not the first time this has happen. I will put a new tube in it, re tape the rims and go from there. I am thinking the rim could be bent.

I guess I am going to have to start going to the beach and swim out to the buoy and back. Out of all the swimming I do, the only thing really different is I normally wear a full face mask. Really?! Could this have been apart of the panic? Who knows. All I know I am not going to allow this to kick my butt. I am going to learn from Saturdays race and fix it. Grrr.. I had no bad vibes Saturday, I could see myself finishing, and I planned out how I was going to swim it. And I practiced in the pool. I am not beating myself up over it, I just can't believe it happen to me.
Later in the season, I plan on swimming and finishing the swim even if I am the last one out of the water, I am a beast on the bike!!!! I will probably forget about the rest of the race jump for joy when I finish the swim!!! haha

And for October my goal for the Wine and Dine is to run the entire race. I am sick of walking the damn thing. I want to run it. Even if the run is slow I want to run. Lighter the faster I will get.

And Since I will not be in the Half Ironman in Disney, E said we should go for the weekend packet pick up, and watch the race or volunteer so I know what to do. Otherwise I will not get anything back out of it. And I can see what I Plan on doing in the future. Maybe I will do the duathlon Miami Man down south in Nov. That way I can get most of the distance, unless I can get past the swimming. I see a goal coming on....hint..hint..

Have a good Monday...

Oh yeah before I forget. I am going to put in writing here and now for Jan.2011 marathon weekend. Hold me to it, and bug me to register I have not done that as of yet.. Add me to the Goofy list. I am going to try it. :) Maybe even be dopey.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

I Tried....

Today's race day. Could not have ask for better weather. Calm winds, cool not cold. 72.9 temp for the water.

Got there early enough to set up in transition without having to rush was really nice. The wee one went to go volunteer. She was at the finish line, and she was excited about that because she was going to see me cross the finish line and give me my water.

My cap was green. I had to wear my cap to wear the green one. It was a rubber cap. SO I had my goggles around my neck so they wouldn't be on the cap then the next thing you know my face swells up. I got in the water like you are suppose to before a race. It was chilly. I didn't wear my wet suit since I would have been the only one wearing one. Once the body adjusted to the water temp it was nice.

It's race time. Each group went off without a glitch. The elite pro guy was out of the water in 15 minutes! Orange caps were in front of mine. Then I hear my name being called. I look back and it was Louis telling not to forget to breathe. :) Then they called green caps to line up. We did. Crossed the mats so the chips would check in. 90 seconds. I am fumbling with my garmin the stop watch didn't want to start. So I fumbled with it some more. 10 seconds, I just left it alone walked up behind a couple ladies and he said go we went. I tried to set my garmin one last time and it just wouldn't go. I got in the water and started. I made 2 strokes and then all the sudden shear terror and panic came over me. I tried to plant my feet on the ground and I was already far enough out I could not touch and then I just freak out. I couldn't catch my breath the buoy looked real far away and I couldn't see the life guards. I turned over on to my back and headed back to shore.
E came the the shore side and saw I was panicking. They tried to get me to go back in the water. I couldn't I was shaking and I was scared. E gave me my shoes and I started to cry. My fear of the water took over and won. We walked to the car I put on a dry shirt, and grab my towel and we headed over to transition and the food area. There's Nat in her Team Voice shirt. "Mommy I saw you get in the water, I didn't see you get out"Then she hugged me. "Mom, you tried. You tried to over come it, and that's ok next time" She made me cry . When did she get so smart?
So for the rest of the race we stayed with Nat and I rang the cow bell while she and this other guy gave out water.
SO it was like I forgot how to do anything. All those hours of drills in the pool, and just swimming back and forth. Just went out the window. :( I don't quit that easy. But there is no way in hell I will be able to swim the 1.2 miles, if I can't even do a 1/4 mile. :( So yes I am quitting the Half Ironman in Orlando. As much as it pains me to say that but after this morning I am not ready.
I am going to have to go back to the basics and get swim lessons. Or go with the couple of friends I did make and go off and do more open water swimming. I mean really, I snorkel in the ocean with sharks and stuff. Never had that problem.
The only difference was I had on a full face mask. Well I have already started thinking about going and getting a new mask, and getting swim lessons. I want to do this really bad. I want to over come this.
So Ironman is going to have to wait another year or 2. I am not quitting, I am going to conquer this fear and do it. I know what to do, and I know what I have to do to get through it.

So the next 2 May Races I will be duathlon, and doing the Olympic sprint,and the sprint.

With that Happy Easter!

Friday, April 2, 2010

Still Under the Weather,Bugg Reset

Today is a better day. The itching is slowing down. My back did break out, that is all that did. My face is still a little sore.

Well it is to late to transfer out of this race that is tomorrow. So with that, I will go pick up my packet and I will still do the race. I am still worried about the swim. I mean it is going to 67 for air temp tomorrow morning at 0700. SO far they are saying the water is going to be 72. So I will wear my wetsuit. I will be wearing the one I have. I am hoping I do not bottom out, I have not been training like I was in Dec. When I get feeling better I have to train like mad. My cap color is going to be green and my wave will start at 0717. E will be posting updates on twitter, and it will post over on facebook too. I will find out how water proof my garmin is tomorrow too. The kids are volunteering today to help set up and tomorrow during the race. I am proud of them for doing that.

We will be staying at All Stars Music in May. I got the rooms reserved. It's set. Except work with my time off.

I have reset all my numbers with the body bugg. Going with the doctors numbers.
So here they are:
current weight:200.00
current body fat: 32%
current LBM: 136.0
Goal date: July 14, 2010
weight loss rate:1.937 lb per week
fat loss rate:2.0 lb per week
muscle gain rate 0.063 lb per week
Goal weight:169.12
body fat goal: 19%
daily calorie burn: 2650
daily caloric deficit:1000 calories
daily steps: 10,000
daily physical activity: 30 minutes
The doctor likes this, so hopefully so will the nutritionist.

So have a great weekend, and I will post pictures later.